it's so normal yet so abnormal to talk about such things out loud... Nobody expects the good things to end. rather we try to ignore it so brilliantly that until and unless you see the final moments coming you don't even talk about it to people around you. I on the other hand have had so many conversations with myself and whomever I could find who were willing to talk about it or even explore the subject.. I am so fascinated about death its almost weird. I won't lie I feel drenched to even think about it but i will have go through it when the time comes... I just don't want it to be painful.
Thinking about it makes me wonder about the behaviour of human beings for endings in general.. be it relationships, marriage, job, business, friendships, life at large for that matter. I guess everyone fears for the unknown.. How will it be without the same routine or whatever the reason. I think I'm always yearning for the unknown.. I really wanna know what else life and death has to offer to me.. They say ask the value of life to the person who is dying... well I'm happy to give away my days.. if that's possible. . I wish people could just change the whole set of life they have lived till yet, and just switch it to something different as their preference. that would be exciting. I guess that's why people attempt suicides. They want to live some other life and they don't have any other way to achieve that so they try to end this one voluntarily. It's sad or it is smart if they actually went ahead to some different and better lives I hope. .
If at all I get to live some other life I would really wanna live in a time when changing your whole life will be possible.. To be stuck in a world where you feel forlorn and just wanna end it... that's really not the way to live. It's not imaginary what I'm saying... I'm so sure the generations ahead will achieve this.. coz I m sure I'm not the only one who wants change. . . .
